Decisions decisions.....

Instead of writing another bad poem about not knowing what to blog about (lol), I thought I'd give you a bit of an update.

There is nothing much to say though.  I'm still feeling a bit 'blah' but am pretty busy these days.  Renovations are coming to an end and I will be on holidays soon.  I'm still concerned about all the free time coming my way.

It has not all been wasted time for I have made some decisions.

I will get back on the dating site in a few weeks.  That is a definite.  If I close off my heart to dating, I will never be able to open it again...that will be it.  I've decided I have too much to give for that and that life is too short.  I'm not sure how long I'll 'survive' the dating site this time around, but I will give it a shot.

As for PMrR1, a few decisions on my part has also been made.  I have not sent it yet, but I have written a final email.  I was not going to see him again but my good friend has convinced me that even if I read the email to him, that it needs to be done to his face. 

I am thinking about it and am seriously considering it.  He may not like my perception of the truth where he is concerned but that is his problem and not mine.  If he doesn't like it, he can attempt to correct it.

Either way, as time goes by, I'm moving on and I feel like I'm being courteous in extending one final email or message to him.  Whether I tell him to his face or through email, I really don't have to do it at all, but I will....  I'm a giver and a peace maker.  It's a bit of a pain in the ass at times to be this type of person.

So there you have it.  Not much of an entry.  I'm not feeling too witty or too energetic frankly.  I'm still seriously fighting off emotional eating and am trying to balance it with exercise.  Although, it will catch up with me so I have to curb this!  It is a definite necessity.  Again, I'm not overly concerned, the weight battle is one that I refuse to lose.  I will regain control of things in that department.

Now if only I could be this confident in my ability to gain control in my dating world......I know, I know, before someone says it..... I need to not try to control it.....yeah yeah yeah..... I got it!

I have to say that despite it all, that it has been a productive few days.  I am making a few decisions. 

It is decidedly good to make a few decisions.....

Signed yours truly, not yet smiling but feeling better about decisions being made....

SSW :/