Counting my blessings.....

We are all human.  We sometimes forget to look for that silver lining in our lives.  I usually always make the effort......but lo and behold, I've determined that I'm not super woman and that yes, sometimes I forget to look for the positive things around me....for that silver lining....it may be tarnished at times, but it is usually there.

I have a beautiful home!  I have a car and everything that I need.  The renovations that I had done within the house look fantastic.  I have a newly painted bedroom that I am decorating to my liking (looks amazing actually).

I'm surrounded by concerned and loving family and friends.  That in itself is an incredible blessing.

And my list continues.  My neighbours are caring and look out for me (the single lady) and I am happy to say that I live in a friendly community!  I feel safe here!

I am the mom to a fantastic teen.  What more can I ask for out of a teen?  He is on task at school, does very well in fact, got himself part time work, is responsible, organized, respectful and caring.  He is not perfect (you should see the state of his room) and of course, he does need guidance in many things.....but that's what us parents are for right? 

No, there is no doubt,  I am blessed, I truly am.....  I have my health, I'm in excellent shape (if I do say so myself - lol). I'm lucky enough to have a good education and am well-employed but more importantly, I love my work!

I have holidays and even though I sometimes worry about what will keep me busy during said holidays, I have to remind myself that at least I'm lucky enough to have the time off.  I really need to just suck it up don't I?

Yes, I'm blessed, I'm lucky, I have worked hard and still work hard for what I have and for how I feel.  That being said though, there is something missing.

Now mark my words, I'm not complaining.  But truly, this is my blog and well....I'll complain if I want to (lol).  Seriously though, I'm not lamenting, I do see what it is I have, but there is an important part missing.....

You all know what it is, I don't have to go into the details of how nice it would be to share this happy life of mine with someone......

I am forcing myself to polish off the silver linings and to look at them more closely.  I'm forcing myself to have thought control.  It's working....I feel better.

My decision to face up to PMrR1 is starting to create a bit of anxiety within me though.  It is something that I will TRY to do at the beginning of next month.  The more I think about it, the more I realize that I probably should do it!? Who knows though, he may not want to see me!?  That would make things somewhat easier but not necessarily good for closure.....

Then again, I still have one week.  Perhaps I will decide not to see him again and just send one final email.  I'm still wavering.  I haven't decided...  As stated before, he left the ball in my court so it is up to me to do what I wish with this.  I'll see what this week brings.....

My decision to get back to dating is leaving me without concern for now.  I'll see how that goes when I jump back in.  There is a tiny bit of hope left in me obviously.....  I hope it doesn't get stomped out too quickly....

 

So there you have it.  I truly believe that every living being has something for which he/she should be thankful.  Sometimes we have to reach pretty deep and look pretty far to find it but at other times, we are looking way too hard...... our silver lining is right under our nose.....

I know that I sometimes need reminders.....

Signed yours truly, thankful for all the blessings in her life.......

SSW :)