I don't know what to write about
I'm really in a rut
I'm not dating or going out
Just feeling bad in my gut
Trying to decide what to do
Be social and smile through it all?
Or will knitting slippers have to do?
Either way, feels I like I dropped the ball
Am discouraged and tired, but alas
Not sure what else to think
Got a hold of my wine glass
Will now pour myself a drink
Energy is low, cause I am sad
Things will look up one day
Will be good and not so bad
I'm not sure what else to say
I need a topic to write about
Something you'd like to hear
Give me ideas or a shout out
About love, life or fears
I don't know what to write about
I'm really in a rut
I'm not dating or going out
Just feeling bad in my gut
Apparently I'm a poet and don't know it.....
SSW :)
Sorry you're feeling so low SSW.
ReplyDeletePerhaps you could talk about your adventures in renovating?
Try not to think about PMr1, I don't think he knows what he wants. I'm not sure he's been fair with you, or perhaps you just didn't want to face the truth?
You are a wonderful person SSW. If he can't see it, it's his loss. I realize it is very frustrating for you. Take a break to get your mojo back, do what feels right for you. And I hate to break it to you, but a poet you're not so much!:)
lol, thank you for your comment! Now I'm low cause I'm not a great poet ;)
ReplyDeleteI am however trying to figure out why you think he has not been fair with me? He did tell me he wasn't ready for a relationship? I did tell him I would stick around for a bit and see. Maybe you mean that he didn't give it enough of a chance? I agree. But I also realize that we all have our journey to figure out.
I'm trying hard not to think about it.... Give my emotions and my brain a break.
As for renovations, my contractor, bless him, is now realizing that I'm pretty useless with any type of information needed when it comes to making building decisions. You should have seem us choose paint over the weekend. I chose the colour, but then the worker at the store asked me if I wanted matt or gloss or whatever else. My dear contractor looked at my face, smiled and answered for me.....lol. He is starting to know me.... A renovations blog from me would be pretty boring cause there would be nothing to write about. Unless I talk about the chaos. I seem to be pretty good in dealing with and writing about chaos....
Thank you for your message
SSW :)
I am speaking from my own personal experience. When I was looking for a serious relationship and I found someone really special, I wanted to spend all my free time with him (ok, I might have been a little intense!) It would have been very hard and then impossible I think for me to see him once in a long while and see other people at the same time. Why? Because I wanted something more than that. And you say you do too. Mr. PMr1 gives conflicting signals, he says your relationship is special and yet not special enough to want to communicate? I would feel that he is pushing me in the opposite direction. I would cut all ties and see if he realizes he's let a great thing go. If he doesn't, at least I didn't waste more of my time on him. Of course, this is your life and everyone's advice, including mine, should be taken with a grain of salt...and a shot of tequila!:)
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comment. Something to think about for sure. He is pushing me away as a 'partner' but wants to keep me as a 'friend'. I'm not convinced him or I will be able to keep it at a 'friend' level. I'm not sure yet if I will even give it a try or just keep quiet and 'disappear' from his life altogether. This is the reason it is good to give it a break and see.....
ReplyDeleteThank you for your thoughts, I appreciate them!
SSW :)
You could always give a shot at writing about dreams in general or otherwise....
ReplyDeleteI love analysing dreams. Thing is, one dream for one person does not necessarily mean the same to the other person. Dreams are linked to what is happening in your life and cannot be generalized. Therefore, books that describes and analyzes your dreams are not good..... If someone wants to take the time to write to me what is happening in their lives and then tell me about their dreams, I would certainly give it a shot. Spend lots of time in university doing that.....
ReplyDeleteThank you for your suggestion and your comment Miro!
SSW :)
In earlier posts, I mentioned always enjoying the time spent with the person that you are dating and starting a relationship by become good friends... however, having said that, the time comes when one has to either decide what it is they are prepared to invest in a relationship and what they are not... Based on my personal experience, I can say that my spouse told me repeatedly that he wasn't looking for a relationship... he didn't want to co-habitate and he would never marry. Within one year of meeting, we were living together and within about 2 1/2 years, we married. Just celebrated our 5 year anniversary... men don't know what they want until they can't have it... maybe you need to not be anxious to see him and make him chase... aren't men supposed to be the chasers... you take care of yourself and come the end of the month, let him chase and don't make yourself too available to him... My other questions...
ReplyDeleteHow old is your contractor??? Does he have a good back?? Is he single? Hmmm... the possibilities... Remember, once you get to a certain age, having a good man, who knows how to use tools and has a good back is worth an awful lot... lol Smile, it'll make people wonder what you're up to...
Hi and thank you for your comments. A friendship was exactly what we were establishing. He needs to decide what he wants. As time goes by though, I think my role in this is limited. Basically, I think the ball is in his court. I don't think I will hear from him again though. I truly don't.
ReplyDeletelol, my contractor is in his early 30s AND he is in a relationship and will be a dad soon! You are right that a man that knows how to use tools is handy to have though..... lol.
Thank you for your comments!
SSW :)