THE zone

I seem to be in THE zone.  THE comfort zone that is.  I'm not here to complain about it.  No, not at all.  In fact, I'm here to tell you that this comfort zone is indeed, very very comfortable.  So comfortable that the thought has crossed my mind that I should be uncomfortable about it.  But then, I shook my head and said 'SSW, get the hell over it, just be freaken comfortable and enjoy the comfort zone.'  So I am.

I figured it was about time that I give my head a shake, that I mentally slap myself and that I just take the comfort, the emotions, the feelings, the ....whatever .....as they come.  I deserve it don't I??

In the last four days, I've seen PMrR1 twice.  The comfort that surrounds those outings are so alien to me that I sometimes wonder if in fact I'm not having some weird out of body experience type thing happening.  It sometimes feels like I'm watching our outings from the outside yet I'm definitely present in the moment.  I think what is throwing me off is that there is no bad feelings, no bells ringing, no fighting of the files (just the M file smiling) and well, just general strangeness that an outing with a man should be so calm and so comfortable...THE comfort zone.

Want to hear something even weirder?  The thought has not even crossed my mind that PMrR1 is playing a game.  I just thought of it to write it down, but it hasn't come to me while I'm with him.

So, here we have it.  A non-game playing, file shutter upper Mister that has gotten my attention.  I wasn't expecting that and frankly, I'm not sure what to say except that I will enjoy it.....  (I'm not even going to write....'enjoy it while it lasts' because that amount of cynicism is not on my radar...). 

Obviously PMrR1 and I are just at the beginning of our outings.  We are still getting to know each other and we are both still on a dating site.  We haven't had any discussions about that yet and that's ok.....  The discussion will happen when the timing is right.

I want to reassure you all that no one has stolen my blog. It is I, SSW writing this to you..... 

Remember in my entry 'PMrR1' I wrote that I was in a process of learning something and that I would tell you when I figured it out.  Well I think I'm figuring it out.....not quite there with sharing it yet because I'm not sure how to verbalize it but something is developing up there (yes there).  I will share it when I fully get it....I won't forget to tell you once I know myself!

It just occured to me that I had to step out of my comfort zone in order to get into THE comfort zone....

Hmmmm, now THAT is something to think about!

Signed yours in comfort,

SSW :)