I've been doing ok. Trying not to think too much about my decision to not control things with PMrR1. I've actually been ok with it. There is a sense of 'que sera sera' with the whole thing.
But in the meantime, I'm back in it.....the dating game that is.....
I met Mr Earring last night. Now you may think that it's a strange name to give a man and I would agree with you. Thing is, as open minded as I am, I cannot stand earrings on a man. I'm not sure why??? I also don't like long hair on a man (long hair that Mr Earring apparently just cut).
Call me old fashioned or closed minded (which I'm not usually) but those are my pet peeves in men's fashion. Ok, I won't talk about his grey shirt and beige pants (interesting colour combination) but the earring.... ugh!!!
No, I will not evaluate my outing with him based on his earring. This shy, quiet, funny, playful, smart, sensitive, gentle artist is the total and complete opposite of me. We basically do not share anything in terms of interests or of things to talk about but, the funny thing is, we managed just fine. We spent 1.5 hours talking and the time went by quickly.
Mr Earring asked me out again and I agreed to another outing. My deep down instinct is telling me that it won't go very far with him. We truly do not have enough in common but I will give it another chance.
Early this afternoon, I met up with Mr Sickly. No, I'm not being mean and I was very sensitive to his plight but I seriously think that Mr Sickly needs to deal with his health issues before going out into the dating scene.
He just finished battling cancer, has celiac disease, cannot eat most foods (I'm sadly not kidding) and cannot work. He has undiagnosed problems with his immune system and I'm not even going to enumerate the developmental, physical and behavioral issues with his two very young sons! YIKES! Not to be mean but.....hmmmm, no thank you!
So my next planned outing is with Mr Earring in a few days. After that I have an outing planned with PMrR1 in one week from today.
The dating can sure be a game..... while writing this to you, I got a message on my dating profile from Mr BS. He doesn't remember me from about 10 years ago (remember my weight loss) but I remember him because he went out with a friend of mine back then. Mr BS was full of it! Not only was he having very strange sexual activities with a male dwarf (I kid you not) but he is also full of venereal disease. Now of course, I'm not judging dwarves and I'm not judging homosexuality and I'm not judging homosexual dwarves (to cover all the bases here) and I'm also not judging vd....... BUT, please be honest Mr BS in your presentation of yourself....... *sigh*.
Yes, I'm back in the game...... sometimes when I think about it too much I get scared and want to run away. But then I think of men like PMrR1 and I realize that the good guys do exist...... so I patiently wait and see. The only thing I can control is myself so I strive to do that.....
I will be fine at the end of this. I will be and still am happy with life. I think that the biggest reason why I'm still 'fine' or still happy despite this game is that I'm not lowering my standards. I'm not settling for anything less than what I know I want and deserve. Yes, of course I'd love to find someone with whom I can share life but if I don't find him, so be it.
All and all, life is good and I'm happy with myself! Believe me when I say that at the very end, this is the important stuff..... I'd rather be happy and alone than miserable and in a couple.....
signed a slightly philosophical yet truly satisfied and happy,
SSW :)
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