As stated in my last entry, I am now taking a break from the dating site. I was going to spend some time with a few particular misters but those are falling through faster than a speeding bullet (lol).
Mr Italian unfortunately turned out to not be sure of what it is he wants....
Mr 2G2BT? Well I saw him tonight after two weeks. We had a wonderful evening, great company but at the end of the evening I told him that I needed to follow my instinct and to pursue dating others.... He agreed with me, then told me that he wasn't sure if he wanted long term with anyone anymore then did say that if he did, he would like it to be with me. We are both dating others. We both agreed that if we 'need' a date for an event to look each other up.... He held my hand all night and kissed me at 5 or 6 different times..... a few mixed messages there it seems. I'm just shaking my head and I've resolved to not think about it because I will over analyze (imagine that).
The only Mr hanging around and whom I have not seen again (yet) is Mr Dangerous (see my entry 'Lascivious Thoughts'). He is turning out to be very nice but I'm not so sure that it will go anywhere.... I am enjoying the attention though :)
Since being online, I had been talking with someone..... I haven't named him yet because I haven't met him. We've been talking on and off for a few months and he did not want to pursue anything because I had a child and he did not want to get involved again with someone with children. I respect a man that says that to me (it's actually surprising how often it happens). Anyways, through communicating on and off, he has concluded that I've got my head screwed on straight. He suggested we meet next week and I agreed to it.
So it seems that I'm taking a real break. No Mr 2G2BT and no Mr Italian. I caught a sale on wool-cotton the other day and starting knitting. My son stopped dead in his tracks when he saw me knitting on the couch. He said, and I quote 'OH NO, you're not dating anymore, you started knitting again'. Hahaha!! Boy did that get me laughing.....
I have to say though that I'm not sure how the hell (forgive the language) other people do it so easily??? Many people are out of a relationship and find a new long term one within days?!! What the hell am I doing wrong? This cannot be explained by me being fussy can it? I prefer to call it having standards and not settling for anything less than what I deserve. Again, I'm not looking for perfection but if I'm not going to be happy with someone (Mr 2G2BT comes to mind) because there is an important element missing, what is the point?
I don't know what to think anymore. Not sure if I want to pursue or not with the whole dating world. A break is definitely needed and welcomed at this point.
Life is still good.....life goes on......
Signed a still smiling although a little bit more sadly tonight,
SSW :}
Perfection does not exist in any of us. It sounds like a good idea to take a break for a bit and give those files a break. Although you have been doing better until recently.
ReplyDeleteSounds like your son knows you very well.
It seems like my son does know me well....lol. The files are simply an analogy to explain what it is I'm thinking.....
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comment!
SSW :)
SSW Sometimes just knitting is good, it is much less complicated than dating and sometimes just as satisfying - especially after a certain age. keep in mind that not all marriages are rosy, wild and romantic. I don't see it as settling, I see it more as comfortable enough with one and other to be able to appreciate without having to go to all the trouble of having to impress with all that goes along with dating. After the marriage of a number of years, the sizzle does fade but the appreciation for one and other usually increases.
ReplyDeleteWhy don't you stop dating with the intent of looking for a long term relationship and simply say that you are looking at simply dating and meeting new people. Perhaps when you least expect it, it will happen. Until then, date when you want to and knit, garden, read, exercise and play the rest of the time. Look at it as a sign that someone somewhere might need socks!
lol, thank you for your thoughts. I just imagined myself giving away socks on a date! :)
ReplyDeleteYou are right to state that satisfaction comes in many forms! Thank you for your comment!
SSW :)