PMrR1

As stated in my last two entries, I have (had) two potential misters in my life.  Both have (had) my attention!  I talked to you a bit about PMrR2 in my last entry but in this one, I want to talk to you about the other mister.  PMrR1.

PMrR1 is a reserved, quiet, cute, funny, intelligent and respectful man.  He is certainly not as exuberant as PMrR2 but that is ok also (it's really ok). We had a lovely outing last night.  Enjoyed a few drinks, a nice dinner and fantastic conversation. 

Frankly I'm a little bit in shock.  Not only do I NOT have any bells ringing, but my files are calm and quiet.  I am not questioning one thing that was said, I have no doubt that I should trust everything that he said and I'm not even doubting myself for NOT doubting this!  What in the world is going on?  Scarier yet, PMrR1 is blowing PMrR2 out of the water.....  (oh how quickly they can fall..lol).

Now you may ask me if I like PMrR1.  The answer is yes I do.  I very much like his company so it's not a question of complacency on my part.

Frankly, I'm not sure what to write at the moment apart from the fact that I'm a bit in shock over my reaction or my lack of reaction.....

Hmmmm, well, so there you have it.  My resume so far of PMrR1.  I'm looking forward to seeing him again, to see if I will feel the same way after our next outing....  I don't see why not but then again, this non-reaction is so alien to me that I can't see why I would not feel the anxiety increasing.

It sounds like I'm almost anticipating to be back on 'track' and have the files freak out on me (haha).  Obviously that is not what I want.....  but...but....but....???

The trust file is smiling a little bit.  It even winked at me!  What the heck is that all about!?  That particular file hasn't smiled or winked since I've started this crazy dating thing.  In fact, at times, I had to check for a pulse on the file to make sure it was still alive!!  YIKES!!

If the possibility of trusting one man can make the other one's light dim so much in my eyes (such as what is happening to PMrR2), well then the sky is the limit when it comes to trusting others isn't it? 

I think I'm in the process of learning a lesson.  I obviously can't tell at this early stage if PMrR1 is THE right one but .....  I'm learning something, I can feel it.  I'll let you know if this feeling continues.... or what it is I'm actually learning if I figure it out.  I have to think right now.

As you have already probably figured out, I'm usually not at a loss for words in this blog.....  but apparently I am at the moment....

Signed a relatively quiet and a totally stunned SSW.... 

:)