Impressive Impressions

I have to admit that I was pleasantly surprised last night!  I went out to dinner with Mr 2G2BT.  Much to my dismay, he was not high strung or high keyed.  He was however 20 minutes late (ahem). We had a nice dinner and talked and talked and talked.  He did apologize profusely several times for being late.  I forgave him....

Sometimes I find him attractive but most times I don't.  Not quite sure what to think about that.  I am attracted to his mind though.  Hmmmm, what to do what to do?  I went into the date with full intentions of it being my final one with him.  Now, I know that it won't be my last.  Was he just nervous the other times?  Is he starting to relax? 

The good news is that I'm not stressing over it.  I really really liked his forewardness about something though.  He came right out and asked me what I would like to do?  If I wanted to continue to see him?  He specifically said that he would like to continue to date me.  He also asked if we should continue seeing others?

I told him that I appreciated his openness and his honesty.  I replied that we could continue to see each other and that of course, we could date others.  He admitted that he always thought it was a good sign to look forward to seeing someone and that he was always looking forward to seeing me....  He said 'let's move forward slowly'.  He repeated my words that I had told him in an email last week.  hmmmmm

My E file along with my T file reacted a bit to that comment.  Is he telling me this because he thinks that this is what I want to hear? 

The ET files have been experiencing some paranoia since the M file got introduced.  They are quivering at the thought of being replaced or rather at being controlled by the Mitigation file.  The Experience and Trust files are realizing that change is occurring up there (yes in my brain) and that a new filing system is slowly being introduced.

So he repeated my words.... who cares?!  Paranoia, lack of trust or whatever you want to call it, I'm just going to go slow with Mr 2G2BT and see what happens.  I will also continue to date others.  Like I've said before, I believe that it will be a good experience for me to date more than one man.  I will not get involved too quickly with neither one and if I feel the 'pull' towards someone more than the other.....well, I'll think about it at that time.

I met Mr Silver tonight.  Nice man but not what I expected....his pictures are not up to date. Tsk Tsk.  That is a big internet dating no-no....  He was nice enough though and that is the important thing.

Whereas Mr 2G2BT is high strung and high keyed, Mr Silver, this 44 year old white haired gentleman is the opposite.  He is definitely laid back to the point of .....well let's just say that the thought occurred to me that I should check for a pulse.  Things were pretty quiet and if I didn't talk, no one else did.... In fact, a couple of times I heard a cricket chirp......  It was a bit on the uncomfortable side.  I was also caught wondering where the heck that cricket came from at this time of the year ;)

Without asking me if I wanted it, Mr Silver gave me his home phone number.  I have a sneaky suspicion that he will ask me out again (sometimes I don't need a brick wall - HA)!

I have another few outings planned in the next week with others.  I will see how it goes and I will surely let you all know!

Something is eating at me right now.  Remember last week when I told you that Mr 2G2BT said he was 'thinking about me'?  Strangely enough, now I find myself thinking about him.  One week later?  What the heck changed in one week?  I'm baffled at that......

In a moment of over analysis over my last paragraph, I find myself wondering if I'm not thinking of Mr 2G2BT because he is in fact the 'better' option of the next few dates that I have lined up.

Wait!  Stop the presses!  There are a few serious problems with this last statement.  Firstly, I need to stop over analyzing!!  There!  Ok!  I said it! 

Seconly, I don't know if Mr 2G2BT is the better option because I have not met the others yet (well I met Mr Silver).  I am about to meet a few others soon.  Even if my first impression is not too impressive (has a nice ring to it doesn't it?), maybe those next few dates that I will have next week will in fact leave an impressive impression :)

Bottom line, I have to remember that the 'better' of a small group is not necessarily the best for me.  Right?  

Again I repeat that I will not settle for anyone that is not right for me! I will however settle for the one that leaves impressive impressions on my heart.

Signed yours truly, hoping to have left impressive impressions that things are actually organizing themselves up there (yes there),

SSW :)