Oh my oh my oh my!! Oh me oh my! I went out with Mr Dangerous tonight! Why is he dangerous you ask? Mr Dangerous is an exciting, sexy, tall, bald, erotic thought provoking D A N G E R. Bad bad bad SSW!!! Get those thoughts out of your head girl! Oh me Oh my!!!
Ok, I got it out of my system, I feel better for confessing to you all! Mr Dangerous is 39 years old (ahem) and very very very sexy! I apologize but it's not all out of my system, here I go again..... My heart rate went up, my blood pressure definitely spiked and so did all the hormones that are left in this perimenopausal woman's body! I got a surge of hormones I haven't felt in......well, it's been awhile and I'm still fanning myself as I write to you. I caught myself twirling my hair while talking (and trying not to stare) at him. I tried to control my eyes that kept on scanning his body. It was so hot in that restaurant and my glass of wine hit me like I had drank the bottle. I drank water and more water afterwards to control myself ....lol.
Ok ok, enough, you get the point. But man was this fun! The good thing (or maybe the not so good thing) is that he wants to see me again. OH OH!!!
Ok, let's sit down, take a deep breath (funny how those deep breaths come in handy for all kinds of things) and let's use our head....unfortunately - HA.
I have already been on the phone with my BFF to try to rationalize this meeting. The first thing she asked is 'how did you guys talk'. I replied that if Mr 2G2BT and I talk at a comfort of 100%, Mr Dangerous and I talked at a comfort of about 80% tonight. So BFF is trying to convince me that between an A and an A+ that there is not that much of a difference! My God I love that BFF of mine!!
Mr Dangerous did say a few things that sent a warning bell ringing though. He talked of serious gambling that he used to do. He also talked a bit about his experiences with other relationships. I did find him to be a bit more spontaneous than what I am used to or comfortable with. For example, last Christmas day, he felt lonely, got on the dating site and a woman from down south of here (approximately 400 km or 250 miles) contacted him and they went off for three days on a trip together! Yikes! I'm also saying YIKES to that woman. She is apparently a lawyer that wanted him to move in with her (yes he is that sexy) but he declined.
Tonight, Mr Dangerous and I were able to talk about all kinds of things and I did like that fact (beauty and brains). He takes care of his kids and he is working. He was a complete gentleman and very respectful. Did I mention how sexy he is?
I'm not sure when I will meet him again or IF I will meet him again. But IF I do, it will be in public (because I don't trust myself......haha).
I have purposely kept my E-file quiet in this entry to my blog tonight. I'm spotting the Experience file looking at me, raised eyebrow, drumming his fingers..... but I'm not listening, no, not tonight, maybe later, just let me have this fun for a bit! Because no matter what, tonight was a fun outing....
In the meantime, sweet gentle Mr 2G2BT is on my mind.....
OH MY indeed.....
Dreamingly yours,
SSW :)
Smoking!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the chemistry but don't lose your head.
I met my husband on a dating site. We talked back and forth for a few weeks, met over coffee, and then supper. We both felt the attraction and I decided that I wanted to get that out of the way so we could interact on a deeper level. So we went away to a nice romantic place and interacted on every level. It was great. We were married a year later. And we don't regret it. I must say though that we had no hindrances to this whirlwind romance, as in no kids at home, no exes to support, etc.
I'd also like to tell another story, if you may. After my first husband left me, some twenty years ago, I met a man, seventeen years younger than me, who flirted with me every time we met. It was a wonderful boost to my bruised and battered ego. We ended out going out and making out a few times. Although my head told me this was just sexual attraction, my head dreamed of love. Of course he soon stopped taking my calls and I was very hurt. I felt foolish and old. I, of course, later learned that he flirted with all the older ladies. Oh well, I wish I could say that I can boast about it today. I saw him since then and buried my head in my magazine. Felt like high school all over again!
So again, have fun, enjoy the chemistry, but don't invest too much into it until...
Thank you for your thoughts and comments. I certainly don't intend to invest into the sexual energy, however, I think I need to look beyond it and see if there is anything there at a deeper level. Time will tell..... Oh and I will enjoy ;)
ReplyDeleteSSW :)