A new and happy beginning!

January 1rst, 2013.  What a reflective few days for this seperated-widowed-single gal.  You know, on every day of the year, I can conquer the world, I can conquer it alone and single.  However, New Year's eve comes around and I sort of lose that force, that independence and in some ways, that security.  What is it about this time of year that makes me (us?) feel this way....

Last night, having to face yet another eve of a new year alone, I decided to be proactive.  I visited a wonderful friend for a few hours and then I decided to go and get lost in the crowd at our local casino.  I rarely go there.  I don't advocate gambling and I certainly do not encourage every single people to start gambling but the place served its purpose for me last night.  Not only was I able to zone out and ignore the count down to yet another year, but I did come out a winner by a few hundred dollars. 

I've been on a dating site on and off since the end of last summer.  I am giving myself a few more days to decide if I will pursue this avenue or not.  As you are probably guessing, I am not finding a great deal of success with it.  Thankfully, I am secure enough and wise enough to know that I much prefer to be 'single' to ring in the new year than to spend it on a bad date.  There is nothing, and I do mean nothing worse than being alone in a couple.  Been there, done that, it won't happen again I promise.....  I will give you details soon as to why this dating thing is not working for me.  Sharing your inner thoughts is not an easy thing to do......  but well worth it in the end I believe....

As I sit here writing this while sipping my coffee, I can't help but wonder what 2013 will bring for me.  I have already decided that it will be my best year yet.   No, not because I think I will find a man (I don't need one to be happy) but because happiness is a choice and not a goal to try and attain....think about that for awhile....  it makes lots of sense.  Happiness will be around me in 2013!

Today, I will concentrate on new beginnings.  I will get some exercise in (I can't wait to tell you about that journey), I will pay attention to the turkey that is waiting to be cooked and I will enjoy some time with my wonderful teenage son.  I will also count my blessings.....  there are many of them.

I wish you all a wonderful and healthy New Year.  Choose happiness!

SSW :)